Price to Pay

When you learn lessons in life, no matter what level you’re at financially, the important part to realize is it could happen. I was an alcoholic, I lost a fortune. I had great talent and lost it. I have to take the story and show that you can bounce back”- ex NBA All-Star Vin Baker

It’s a great big world out there, and yet I will begin to believe that I’m the only one anywhere on this planet going thru whatever it is that I perceive to be so important. The crazy part is that I think money or people can fix me. The crazier part is that intellectually I know better.  I begin to believe the lie that if only I had that new _________, then I’d be happy. I’m looking outside myself for that one piece of the puzzle that had been missing to fill the inside. I’ve got to remember that I have a disease that is totally wrapped up in self absorption. Thankfully, I have a program that teaches me that self centeredness is the root cause of all my troubles. If I am all I think about, then the scope is limited to my plans, my designs, my schemes, and my will. I’ve grown up in the “me” generation and somehow missed the boat. The first house I ever bought cost less than most new cars today. That was twenty years ago, and I still live paycheck to paycheck.  Why is it that the more I earn, the more I spend? Probably because I am trying to distract myself and change the way I feel. The same way I used drugs and alcohol. I told my father that I noticed a trend in recovery circles where it seemingly was hard for a rich man to sober up, and he reminded me that it’s hard for a poor man, too. There is already a price that has been paid, and that is apparently the craziest part of it all…..good day!…b

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