God in skin

screenshot_2016-12-07-22-17-35-1For what it is worth, I meet God face to face each day, but I’ll also occasionally shake hands with the devil. The one I follow, are the voices I feed. Practicing the principles of a 12 step program can be difficult and challenging. I mean, who really wants to be patient, tolerant, and loving at all times, especially to the mean lady at the check out counter? It takes courage and willingness for me to smile back and not mumble a curse word under my breath, but thats the devil inside. It’s the spiritual warfare within where working an inventory, abandoning myself to God, and making restitution for harms done to others helps me win the battle. A God conscious that helps me when I’m exhausted, helpless, and without an answer. Addiction is a puzzling riddle for many who aren’t in recovery or who have not had struggles with that next drink. I’ve been on the side streets with Satan himself, my pain so unbearable that I needed chemicals to ease it, and even that turned on me. The best news is that God walks among me today. The names of the people who wear their own spiritual journeys like loose garments who have helped save my life are too numerous to name or even remember without leaving someone out.  They showed me His Spirit by caring for me when I didn’t care for myself. Many I’d shun in isolation and fear,  and then I quit drinking and drugging and found they were spending their time helping those who had become willing to give up booze and do the work it takes to remain abstinent. They simply were using their experiences to help others. It’s not a graduate diploma we get in recovery, it’s a daily trudge. To trudge is “to walk with purpose,” and that’s how I found God. Walking around me, talking around me, and  doing around me were the people with skin in the game of Life who showed me who God is, and was, and forever will be. People who were so giving who had nothing, and people who were sharing their stories to give each other hope. It’s where joy, peace, and love are found;  right in the middle of the hearts of God…..blessings always!….b

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